I am still pregnant (wouldn’t you know?) 🙂 And I am still battling being too emotional. BUT…God is giving me victory through His promises. Yesterday, I woke up really sick once again with morning sickness at 23 weeks. Hannah has dropped her afternoon nap mostly since we moved here (it was a big surprise as she was napping for 3 hours before we moved)…and she is just 2 1/2. I have sadly lost the battle (and I have tried diligently for several months)…except on days when she wakes up really early.. She’s been sick for so long…I cannot even count…last week she had another cold and was still throwing up and having diarrhea, and the poor little one has been waking up continuously through the night for weeks.
As I woke up this morning, I knew I had a choice. I could ask, how am I going to get through yet another day of sickness and lack of sleep…resting in my own circumstance, my own strength…my own understanding…MY identity. Or I could think about what God has to say. The verses immediately flowed in my head. My joy will come in the morning. This is the day the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it. I claimed those promises and clung to them. I KNEW it was going to be a wonderful day. The day doesn’t depend on how I am feeling…legitimately or some days, not legitimately 🙂 I am going to choose to rest in His identity.
I came out of the bedroom encouraged, but to find that Brian hadn’t any sleep and wasn’t feeling well too. We made our way to Sunday school that morning and found that it was canceled because of Spring Break (we missed last week’s when they announced it because of Daylight Savings…aren’t we all together!?!). We all sat down on the couches in the front of the church. Brian and I sort of stared at the ground. We didn’t want to talk because what was there positive to say? We both feel terrible. We have to go home and come back really soon and do this all over to come back to church. How are we going to manage when we both are tired and don’t feel well? I quietly commented that sometimes the sickness goes away after a few hours. Brian smiled. The other night an idea came to me for another weekend and I happened to write down the address and directions…we didn’t imagine it for this day…but we thought, why not? We prayed and set about trusting that this day would be wonderful because God can do anything 🙂
And it was an incredible day. We went to Union station in Kansas City and saw train models, went to a really neat science museum, saw a short big bird show about space that Hannah LOVED…and felt the Lord speak to us about something. The sickness did go away after a bit. I rubbed Brian’s neck to make his headache feel better, and he took some medicine. We even ate at a restaurant peacefully 🙂 It was very special. We came back and were all sleepy and cuddled the rest of the night…and then off to bed! We MADE it. The Lord truly made this day BEAUTIFUL.
We are learning to claim His promises and rest in His identity, despite anything.