There really is no other way to put it. My days feel like I am running a marathon…with my sweet little bed welcoming me at night.
Things I am thankful for:
I LOVE my Emma. Her two-toothed grin and sparkling blue eyes light up with joy. Her giggles bring unending joy. She brings peace to my days…and love always. I love seeing her delight and distaste in different foods…the joy of learning her sweet little personality.
I am thankful for Hannah’s bone to HEAL completely!!! This is a huge miracle for me to grasp hold of today and PRAISE Him for: Our GREAT Healer!!
I am thankful for the obedient spirit I see in Lewis…growing each day. I am thankful for all that he is learning with his friends right now…learning to love, learning to overlook offenses, learning about God’s love over him always.
I am thankful that spring is coming SOON. We had a snow last night, and as it melts, I wonder if it is the last one.
I am thankful that my body is able to lose the rest of this pregnancy weight…I really did wonder if it would all come off this time…I am thankful for the time to work out and the calories nursing burns! I always gain much more than the recommended amount.
I am thankful that I am loved, cherished, accepted, and redeemed…bought with a price by Him.
I am thankful for God healing our colds.
I am reminded this week that God is FOR me and not against me. Isn’t it so easy to confuse God with life? It feels like I am battling so much right now…difficult attitudes, regression in behavior…I want to feel disgruntled…but I know that God is on my side. He is working with me. He cares more about all of this than I do. I know the remedy for a disgruntled attitude is a thankful heart.
Lately, it seems we’ve had a bunch of setbacks…potty training, behavior. Hannah was dry even at night just two weeks ago…and now we are back to “sweet treats” to get her to go on the potty. I have found lots of “surprises” the past 2 weeks…after asking her to go potty…she runs and hides…giggles and goes. My little 3 is such a challenge…daily…for me. It feels like regression some days…and others, I succumb to the “terrible 3” explanation. She has dropped her naps entirely the past 2 weeks…despite quite an effort to maintain them. She feels so deeply…and has opinions about everything. She doesn’t hold back how she truly feels. She is so determined! She has a great memory. She really is so smart, she surprises me daily by what she knows, remembers, and can do. She is SO independent. I am wondering how all of these qualities will be used someday…in ways that I know God will use to bless others.
We’re working hard on obedience right now. I am so passionate about their hearts…I know this is a gift, but it does mean that my heart is burdened right now…I keep taking those burdens right back to the Lord. I love them…even if I don’t like the sin. He is able to handle all of it. I must press on.
I am SECURE in HIM right now…not the blessings God has given me…He giveth and He taketh away…my security, my confidence is in Him. I am SURE of Him.