This is a season where God is growing me deeper in my faith. I love that despite the plans of the evil in the world, nothing can stop the Lord Almighty. I love God’s WORD!! I love that when someone smiles at me pretending to be friendly, all the while plotting evil in his heart, I open God’s Word and He reveals this person’s heart to me to WARN me to not trust! How could we possibly navigate this world without Christ? Without the Word? Without the Holy Spirit?
Every attempt at evil is thwarted by God for those who love Him! One of my favorite stories of the Bible is the one of King Saul and David. David had done only good to Saul all his days, but Saul was so very jealous of David that every time David was blessed by God and succeeded, Saul only became more exceedingly jealous, until after great success in battle, David came home to realize Saul’s jealousy, and being wise, he kept himself on guard, and while coming to play music to calm Saul’s troubled soul, Saul threw a javeline at David to kill him and David was able to dart away from it and escape. If you read the story further, you discover Saul’s intense jealousy and how Saul tries to kill David over and over again only to be thwarted every single time by the Lord.
I love that my days are numbered. I will go only when God says I will go. I feel as though the Lord has promised me a long life of blessing and peace and will put me in a position to love and bless my children all my life. This promise is so sweet to me right now. I thank God for it. I know I will go only when He has chosen for me to go. There is deep comfort in that. And honestly, my life has had sweet moments here on earth, but many, many hard ones…and heaven will look so sweet to me in my old age. My right now, at 35, I feel as though God has much work to do in and through me. His passion in me will not be put out.
Doesn’t it feel like some things or people threaten to quench your fire or passion? I have had times in my life when I felt so full…and during this season of my life, it is a constant refilling by the Lord that is getting me through my weeks. He FILLs, the World DEPLETES. He FILLS, my circumstances DEPLETE. And you know the most wonderful thing about it? He NEVER STOPS FILLING.
My heart is SO VERY FULL tonight, only because God has me encouraged. The thought of Him as He DELIGHTS to FILL me up makes me smile. It is never too much for Him. He knows we need it. He delights in doing it. All the more reason to PRAISE YAWEH.
As I have stated before on my blog, there are two goals on my heart right now to accomplish. To goals I have felt the Lord pressing on my heart amidst many different tasks. One is to run a marathon. Will you all please pray for me as I run 5-7 hours next Saturday, the 4th of November? I was deeply touched two weeks ago as a older friend from PWOC offered to come watch me run in Savannah! And as my Great Uncle and Aunt open their home and hearts for me to stay with them and drop me off at the start line. Truly, as I couldn’t find my last marathon, I cannot tell you how nice this is!! I am excited for the time I will get to spend with my Uncle and Aunt whom I haven’t had the chance to catch up with in some time. There is so much I want to ask them and write down before it is too late. There is so much I want to know. And I will have 5-7 hours to think and pray during my marathon, so I am excited for the time to do that.
Please send me prayer requests as I run and pray. I am thrilled I will have so much time to pray.
My other goal is to write a book. Honestly, I have already started writing one, but my mind jumps to another, and then another. I think I have a ton of writing to do. I am most looking forward to finishing my work. I feel as though it will be deeply fulfilling to me and I hope a blessing to my children as well. They will get to know their mommy’s heart through my books. They will know the truth about what I think, what is important to me, all about my faith. No question will go unanswered. I hope it is my legacy to them….to fill them with information, with TRUTH, with a mommy’s heart that was bent on preparing the way forward for them…to teach them to strive to meet their goal’s, by God’s grace, and to never quit. For them to KNOW ME.
I have been thinking about this point as I write this blog tonight. Isn’t that why God left us the BIBLE? Didn’t He know that Satan would throw us so many lies about Him? Isn’t that what the Enemy did from the very beginning in the garden with Adam and Eve? God calls him the Father of Lies. The Bible was given to us ultimately, I believe, for us to KNOW HIM. Yes, it is our guide. Yes, it convicts us of our sin. Yes, it is a historical masterpiece. Yes, it is evidence of creation, how we began, a moral guide. BUT, ULTIMATELY, our loving Father wanted us to know a few things. FOR CERTAIN. He wanted us to know WHERE we came from, WHOSE we are, WHAT He thinks of us, WHAT HE did for us, WHAT we should do, WHERE we are going, and ultimately, WHO HE IS. He wants us to know Him. God created us FOR HIM. I was made for HIM. To know Him, to enjoy HIM, to glorify HIM. My life is not my own. And so…He gets to choose when I go to heaven. Thank God that my salvation is secure. Thank God that I will ride on wings like eagles to my final resting place in eternity…to which I commit, wholeheartedly to pray for all my beloved from a place far above.
If some of you think I am getting a tad bit sappy, please know that I am thinking about this right before I spend an entire day running in just ONE week. 🙂
Truly, I am not ready yet! I am glad my marathon is here now. I am glad I get to run it. I am thankful for a body which has cooperated so far in my training.
I praise the Lord who will strengthen me as I run. By His strength and grace.
Walking in Faith 